Flashback - 2008

From Asri :

What would you do if someone that you really love hang about with some else or did lied to you?
What would yo do if someone that you really love doesnt can stand in relationship?
unfaithful,keep refusing evrything that she did behind me, and finally our creature of earth found it to me. Oh god, what a conjecture you had give to me.....
Im not blaming you,im not an ego, im not bad as you saw and told about me..,,
What i only believe in is about loving you, and only you.....,( theres no other girl in my life even my ex school or who else, i throw them out as long as i can be with you)
I just can feel it, and sometime it comes to my dream,
It really hurt, my lung, my heart, can feel the pressure of blood and air from my body.
How could you do this to me,
tHREATEN?i absalutely really dont accept this, it take couple of week, maybe month for me to fully recover as what i are.
Stop doing that if you wanna be with me again..,,
rEVENGE?something that i wont do that, because i know how it hurt, every single word that i give and told to you, i didn抰 do it....
but you, everything that u refuse and never tell me is what u really did,
Dear wanie...if you want to prove me about how you loved me, stop doing that stupid behave..keep on doing that love rules which you yourself know...
STOP FOOLING ME, STOP ALL THE THING THAT MAKE ME HURT, IT REALLY HURT, IT REALLY HURT, IT REALLY HURT, I CAN BE CRAZy IF YOU WERE ME....
I DONT THINK THAT U STILL CAN BE WITH ME...
Why you always did that? Tell me why????
Flirting, i dont know how many guys..........stop, shit, fuck, i forgive you for this time, but please....PLEASE,it抯 very entertaining....(rihanna song抯 almost influence me, but we are not over i still
give you chance to prove your love to me)
The truth is i still loving you...believe me, i wrote this for you to remember, put it into ur mind, heart, i wont just hear it by words, blood,doing all that stupid thing but stop flirting, lying,
change to be good wanie and be beside me.........,,
(T_T), i beg u, with all my heart...



Im Answering you Asri :


Im asnwering you sayang.......
U said like you are the one that hurt too much,,,
Have u think bout me?
Where were u when i need u?
Where were u when i need ur attention?
U said like i never show my love to u...
I admit i do makes lots of mistakes,,,
I apologise,,but it hard 4 u to accepted it,,and give a reason that u r too hurt,,,
Im begging u,,but u refuse,,i was like stupid begging for your attention,,
Im not saying 4 what happen to us now,,,but in past,,,
When im try to avoiding u,keep far from u then u will realize all that...
U said u dont one me to prove by words,blood or action,,,
But please tell me which girl that done what i done to you before??
Begging u front of public,walking in the middle nite to see you,hurting my self,commit suicide,,
But to u its not enuf to prove my love to u,,
Then why u wont let me kill myself that nite??????
So that u will not hurt by me anymore and believe in my love(i hope u will if i really did)
Ive told u sayang,,,,,,theres nothing between me n him,,,i swear,,,buf it juz a fucking shit to u ryte,,
U ask me to explain everything but u wont listen,,then what do u expect me to say?
I noe its hard,,,but its hard for me too,,not juz u sayang,,,,,,
Love is about two person not juz u,,,remember that,,,
All that i juz want it is ur attention...as much as i giv 4 u,,thats all i need,,not ur money or sex,,
For all the arguing,misunderstanding,mistakes, stupid action, blood, tears,attention and so on,,,,i apologize,,,,
Take all time that u need,,as much as u want sayang,,,,,,
I will try to be as perfect as u want,,evevthough i noe that u wont beleive me at all,,
But i will try the very best of me to the very best for you,,for us,,,
Last but not least,,,
I ask my heart if i still need you,love you,care 4 you,,,,
My heart say yes,,,i need u in every part of my life,,,same to u there is no body else..
Mgkin betul kate2 u i curang,,but it by words not by heart,,deep heart and feeling,,,i've got one heart how can i share with anybody else,,,
Whatever i say u still wont believe..so please don ask me for explanation if u wont hear it,,cause it juz waste,,,,,,
I think i will give u time,space for u to recover,,,i noe for this time u dun need me at all..
Think,,,,,think,,,,think,,,,,as deep as u can,,,,to all we've been through and will goin through,,
Is that afford to u to continue loving me...after all that i did to u,,unfaithful ryte...u juz say what u see,,but u dont know what u didnt see,,,
U juz see me being unfaithful but never see me being faithful,,u noe whut sometime i sick of being faithful coz u r not appreciate it,,,ur not,,ur not sayang,,,,,,


16 Julai 2010 _ i tak pernah curang pada you from the first day im with you dan i takkan pernah cuba untuk curangi you sayang..